Everyone loves morning here. I have never been a morning person, I love the night, but I”m changing. Mornings are my worst for pain, I wake up in excruciating pain every morning, every single morning. And with fatigue. I lie there feeling like there is just no physical way for me to possibly get up…
But of course, I do… And once I get moving, my medication, my coffee.. depending on the day, I usually have a good hour or three in me, where I can actually do something. As afternoon approaches I start to crash and nothing stops it. Not a nap, not a short rest… I just start sliding and all I can do is keep sliding and sit down. I usually get the shakes, and start slurring my words more, as fatigue kicks in. The kind you can’t make go away.
Being on a higher dose of prednisone right now is starting to really show again and my eyes are getting worse. But it does give more energy for a few hours in the day – super hyper false energy, but it’s energy. My mind races with ideas, thoughts, projects. I quickly forget what I was thinking about though or doing, even mid thought. It’s all in light speed.
But on a morning like today, with the sun out, and the air nice and cool, the animals are extra happy, which makes me happy, and also grateful. And it changes everything, my mood, determination, thought process. They are happy. Loved. They give me more than I can ever give them. I cannot imagine my life without animals, and someday the time will come when I won’t be able to sustain this. Be it physically, or financially, or both. Things will change. So I will not take each day I have them and the ability to wake up to them, for granted.
Ghost and Nymeria have nearly doubled in size in a week, they are growing so fast! I am so pleased with them, and their personalities, and how quickly they are adjusting to their new family. They both have two different very distinct personalities and Ghosts instincts are already quite strong. They are also, of course, sweet as pie.
Max & Flavious are adjusting to them, and the sheep actually really adore them and spend a lot of time with them, especially the lambs.
They make me smile every single morning and I’m so grateful for that, and for them… they make the hardest part of my day, also the happiest.
