Just like in nature, nothing is ever easy... there are always the wonderful, beautiful, inspiring, exciting, parts... but also the harsh realities, and, sometimes mountains, or at least steep hills, to climb up... if and when you can. We've had a very rough week with the sheep. We lost both our ram, Fred, and, this … Continue reading Harsh Realities…
“I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because … Continue reading New beginnings….
I've written a million times.... OK maybe a thousand... about how horrible it feels when a writer cannot write. It's the same as when a painter can no longer paint, a farmer can no longer farm (yes I realize these are all references to things I do) but you get my point. My passions and … Continue reading Finding my words
Is what we are doing currently! It has been -30 or colder C for the past several days, and also -40 C. It's cold. Too cold for everyone, except the Maremma's who are in their glory. Even I cannot believe it and I know they like cold, but they are happy, active, and it's not … Continue reading Staying alive…
I have never really realized where some of my behaviors have come from since I got sick. There are certain things I've started doing since I became ill, that I recognize that I do. Like isolate during pain flares. But there are plenty of things I haven't realized yet, or am just starting to recognize … Continue reading Sometimes I just go away… but I come back…
Yesterday I couldn't do anything all day. Well, that's not true, I actually painted all day long, non stop, but I could barely get up from the couch just from pain, fatigue, and plain not feeling well. The painting was a great distraction and amazingly I felt creative, and was able to focus on it, … Continue reading 2 AM Start
My last Doctors appointment was the first one in probably 2 years I did not leave and immediately have an emotional break down over. After every appointment I have the same reaction, with any of my Doctors. I cry. I feel hopeless. I then feel angry. Then hopeless again. Then eventually this level of acceptance … Continue reading Snowy Saturday and an update
